the last two years??!!

It seems a long time that I don't write here. 

Just now I want to write something about these two years. Because these two years, for me has a big change. And I know more than before. But the big change was that I knew a lot different people. And also because of that I can say goodbye to the past. 

I think from 2012 it's a hard time for me. I faced a lot problem, and because of that I need to be the people who I hate before. But that's life I know. Even you really hate this kind of behavior. But sometimes you must do it. Just you must.

Anyway what I want to write now is about my friendship. 

Last year I knew a lot good friends, some of them are really nice. Always take care of me. When I want they must be there. But I think I may a bit selfish. Because I just want them when I want. Once I don't want anyone to with me, then I will have a lot excuses to say like I am busy, I have friends to visit, I need to study. But the main reason is that I want to be alone. I don't want them to bother me too much. Because space for me is very important. 

Like I want to take my time but not share my time to them. That's why sometimes I don't want to stay in a city for a long time, that will make me tired to contact with the people. 

I only want share my time with the one who I love. But still not easy. Because he works all the time. But it's ok, just sometimes I want to be with him, only that, and I don't want to bother him too much. But I think we still need to learn how to be together. But it will be fine I know. 

Hmmm, tomorrow should spend the time for the things, hope everything will be ok. Just not so much time to fix them.  But things will become clearly after next week I think.